Day Two is way worse than day one. I returned to work for the week and had my meals planned. I just so happened to forget my shakeology though. So, I stopped and picked up a protein bar from the store on the way to work. While it isn’t ideal, it was at least better than giving up just because of one meal which I have been known to do. I really had been doing well today considering it was a Monday until I found out that Mike and I will not be getting married in the next couple weeks. Due to other circumstances, our marriage license will lapse, and we will have to go get a new one. I am less than thrilled about this, but I am trying to see the positive in it. My sister is trying to stay positive for me as are a couple of my friends that I have told about the situation. Long story short, I wanted to give up. I made a comment about going a shoving my face with a burger because eating my feelings for the past 10 years has been how I handle stress. But a friend of mine told me to knock it off. Had she not said that, I do not think I would have made it home to make a healthy dinner. We had such a hectic night that I stopped to get Lochlan dinner at McDonald’s. I ate almonds I had stashed in my bag instead. I will admit that I have eaten a couple pieces of English toffee and piece of fudge tonight. It was not even my usual, “I deserve this.” I know I shouldn’t have, but I am just glad I didn’t over indulge considering all the craptastic food we have in the house. I just wish I didn’t have such a terrible relationship with food. I also wish I was self-motivating and had more willpower. I don’t know that I have ever had those things though. I don’t know how someone goes about obtaining them or even how they lose them if they did in fact once have them. I am disappointed in myself for not working out today, but glad that I at least stayed on track for the most part food-wise. Fitness is just part of this journey. Healthy eating and positive mindset play a bigger role than working out, or so I tell myself to feel less guilty. Tomorrow will be a whole new set of problems as I will be traveling and in the car for six hours. Hard boiled eggs? Check. Apples? Check. Almonds? Check. And lots of ice water……