day-three

Day Three was NOT my best day. I started off really well. I was up before 5 am to get Lochlan packed and ready to meet his dad in STL. I packed my lunchbox with two hard boiled eggs, apples, almonds, snacks for Lochlan, and made sure to have a jug of water with me. It took me six hours to get there and back, and I did fairly well. I did forget to eat carbs for breakfast, so I felt hungry during the trip. I may have eaten some of Lochlan’s Lucky Charms, but that was not where the bad part happened. Once I came home, Mike had to leave for work. So there I was . . . no kid . . . no Mike . . . just me and Netflix. I have seen things that have said, “Do not eat! You are bored. Not hungry. Get up and do something.” I should have listened. It is so rare to have the house to myself during a week day. And the weather was super crumby. So in typical Lauren style, I let my excuses get the best of me. Once I start of my downward spiral, I let it go all the way out of control. It starts with a handful of chips. Then the salt craving kicks into full gear, and I end up noshing on sweets to balance it out. My body hates me today. Even after two days of eating healthier, it hates what I did. It may have liked the fried ravioli I had while eating dinner, but I definitely paid the price this morning. It was not even 6 am, and I felt sick. My stomach was queasy, and I couldn’t sleep anymore. Mike was actually up because he could not sleep either. His was due to a terrible leg cramp waking him up though. I feel bad since he still has to work a 10 hour day. Ps- I would like to take this time out to thank his employers. Everyone else will be out of work a decent time today. No one will be there past 4 pm. Even the two other instructors/assistants he works with will be gone. One took the day off while the other will leave early. Mike will be there with whatever students show up until 9:30. They said he can leave an hour early tonight. How considerate of them. Every part of me wants to say something negative, complain, and wish ill upon those that get to spend time with their families while Mike and I are stuck here just the two of us, but I won’t. Other people I have talked to wished they could have a Thanksgiving just the two of them. I am a people person. It bothers me not to have my big family around joking and laughing. That is how memories are made. That is how Mike grew up making memories too. Weird how things change. Anyway, I have gotten so far past my point. Day Four is a new day. I am on the healthy breakfast track currently, and we will see where the day takes me. Good to know that I already got my grocery shopping done before 7 am though! That is a great start. Happy Wednesday!